Friday, February 28, 2014
August 19, 2011
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Beauty
He kissed her
Everywhere
Her warm porcelain skin his
Favorite oxymoron
The freckle on her inner thigh
The light crescent quarter moon birthmark
Shadowed on her back
She was always so self conscious about
Her scars
But he knew that they were beautiful
Just as she was beautiful
Indelibly ingrained in her skin
A story
So he would kiss her
And drink all of her story in
Saturday, May 7, 2011
The Art of Being
There is a feeling like none other on earth. Beyond love, beyond pain, beyond happiness, beyond sadness, it transcends all. It is the art of just being, pure essence of existence. This music, it pulls down to my very bone, it leads me, it consumes me. There is a sweet blissful fire in this art of being. There is a sweet blissful numbness when all you are is in notes and pure vibrating being, soaring, undulating, existing. There is no separation of thought, no differentiation in who you are, where you have been, what the words mean. There is nothing, only this. Purity, vibrant, virulent color of sound. Yes, color, even that, in images, in the tangible produced by the intangible. You never could understand how powerful feeling is in the absence of emotion. Seems impossible, but in the impossible is the probable.
I can see the lovers, I can sense the hesitation, the passion unfolding, building, surviving. I can sense the loss, the last ditch effort, the struggle to create something beautiful, something tragically unique and compelling. I can sense the pounding feet on the pavement, seeking a release of emotion in the physical. I see eyes open, awareness of life's harsh realities and its subtle beauties, refusing to be tainted by the pain. I can see hope, I can see the fire of passion, I can see the glow. Heartbeats, together as one, they pound, unstoppable. I can see the struggle to be original, the desire to be completely one with yourself. All the imperfections, all of the impurities, they were more a part of you than the utopian. It never was attainable, so stop trying. Stop trying to do, and just be for once. Just breathe, and just be. Beyond it all, just be.
Monday, March 15, 2010
On A Lazy Sunday
Nature holds me
A sweet solemn embrace
The sounds of innocence
Hold fast
For the beauty of nations
Is only in nature itself
Today was like that. It was so nice outside, I could feel it calling to me. And so, I took my sweater outside and lay it on it in the grass, trying my best to avoid the itchy St. Augustine and I turned on my music and closed my eyes and let the heat seep into my bones. And I felt so at home, so connected. And when I opened my eyes, the naked tree swayed above me, buds beginning on its brown, bare branches, in stark contrast to the pure robin’s egg blue of the sky. My mind took me so many places as I lay there, and I was reminded of the last time I had enjoyed the sun and its warmth. I could see Hyde Park, smell it and feel it as if I was actually there. But when I opened my eyes, I was greeted with the powerful glare of California sun, and eucalyptus trees waved slowly in the distance; for some reason each individual leaf was clear to me. Two hawks soared overhead and in a moment of pause from music, I heard the plaintive call of a seagull.
I am so far from that day in London, but it is still in my heart. But I am so close to the things my heart yearned for while so far away, and it brings such joy to my life. And as afternoon turns to dusk and dusk turns to the darkness of night I can hear the crickets sing, and a lone frog begins his chorus as well. And I laugh for the pure beauty of it all, the sheer joy as I watch my sky turn the firey orange that can only be found on this side of the world, in this small haven that I call a home. It isn’t always perfect, but it is enough, this wonderful slice of heaven on earth, this wonderful cradle of nature that envelops me. And when I close my eyes again tonight, I hear the seagull call, the crickets chirp, and I see the branches sway, and the glowing sun warms my bones. My beautiful lazy Sunday. It is enough. And life is beautiful.